The Dark of Light

ImageSuffocating. The ebony fingers stroke your senses, play with your fears–your desires.  Your hopes and dreams flash with the beat of your heart, then fade as panic’s stress entwines itself into the very fibers of your muscles, making automatic reactions spasm and twitch as they fight for control.  As much as you want to manipulate the scene and its outcome, you are helpless and blind, groping for the light that will erase the doubts–the nightmare.

While this may seem like a description for a number of things; a panic attack or heart attack, for instance, it is neither.  It is also not a crime scene in progress.  It is the dark tunnels of life.  The point where we have no idea where we are headed at the end, but know the only way to get to the end, and to the light is to keep moving forward even in those dark moments of doubt. 

For some, life starts fairly easy.  Nice flat terrain that stretches for miles.  At some point, perhaps at high school, the terrain begins to climb as decisions have to be projected further into uncharted territory.  We may find a small tunnel running through our hilly landscape.  There is a small degree of uncertainty, but the darkness is short and we are on the other side of this tunnel quickly.

Life seems to create these changes in terrain to condition us, transform us, and prepare us for what lies ahead, but that doesn’t mean the journey through the dark tunnel of doubt or fear is easy to manage.

The longer the tunnel, the greater the doubt, the more questions we ponder–rhetorical or otherwise–the harder the journey through the blanket of night.  We pray the next step will be the point around the bend where the sliver of illumination will appear, drawing us to its source–our hopes, expectations, and goals.

You’ve heard the saying, “Nothing worth having ever comes easy.”  Why the heck not?  Rhetorical question, as we all know that we have to live and experience all of life’s lessons–good, bad, and downright painful to become the unique person we need to be to seize the opportunity that is represented by the light at the end of the tunnel.

While the tunnel may be long and come with twists and turns you struggle to see, you can keep going knowing there is a point to the turmoil that fills your mind as you stumble through the dark.  The key lies in never giving up.  Even when you feel like curling up into a fetal position and letting the fears claim your spirit and will to go on, you must not stop!  You only fail when you don’t keep moving forward.  Stop looking behind you, there isn’t anything to go back to, only lessons to carry forward.

Greatness is waiting to be born, and that only happens when we breach the light that may be long in coming, but is there, even when all you can see is black.

Climbing Sweetpeas Author Interview

Climbing Sweetpeas Author Interview

Wattpad author interview with Sheila Bautista. 

If you haven’t heard of Wattpad.com, you should get familiar soon.  It is a great source for young and established authors to share their stories for FREE!  You don’t even need an account to read the stories.

I have been a reader on this site for some time, but only recently made the plunge to contributing to it.  One draw back.  If you write rated R material, your work isn’t as visible as the other works that are rated G or PG, as there are many underage fans on this site.  You have to search under the mature filter to see these works.

Anyway, check out this interview from a successful author from this site. 

Not Homogeneous

Job hunting has drastically changed over the last decade.  Before, you printed out dozens of hard copy résumés on nice bond or linen paper, and then hunted through the few internet job boards or newspaper ads, searching for companies to send those beautiful specimens to.

Today, you look through the numerous internet job boards, placement agencies, or company career sites looking for an opportunity that matches your particular set of qualifications; assuming there is such a thing.  You then hit the “Apply Now” button.  This takes you into what they say will be a twenty minute process, but the reality is that it takes an hour to complete all their fields, upload your résumé, write and upload your cover letter; which they never provide a human name or address for, so your letter is to “Whom it may concern” or something to that effect.

You then hit the submit button and hope you make it through all the company’s computer algorithms and your résumé actually is selected as one of the potential interview candidates.  That is assuming they have algorithms.  If you are dealing with a company that has a personal touch, you may be part of the vast sea of a couple hundred applicants for that position.  Do you want to place a bet on the likelihood your résumé will ever see anything but the equivalent of the cyber round file?  Didn’t think so.

So what do you do?  How do you stand out in a sea of two hundred applicants if you aren’t even seen?  While technology has made sending out résumés an automated process, it has taken out the human element as well.  Everyone becomes one homogeneous commodity. Nothing special, nothing personal, nothing more than a list of data that may or may not stand up to the algorithm set for the ideal candidate.

I have never lacked a job in my life, well at least until now, when I want to completely change career paths.  I have never considered myself a homogeneous commodity, and now I am reduced to just that.  I am not a person with a unique set of abilities, talents, and experiences, but only a set of skills, education, and qualifications that are randomly selected by those that seem to have a lock on the ideal candidate.  So much for thinking outside the box.  No need for being wonderfully talented, personable, and easily adaptable.  You just have to have the right number of years and/or degree, and you might get plucked from the abyss.

I laugh when I see a ten year experience requirement for an administrative assistant or executive assistant.  Really?  How hard is it to type correspondence, send a fax, an email, schedule an appointment, or make travel arrangements?  Most college students can do these tasks, and yet, someone with twenty-five years of business experience isn’t qualified to handle a phone call apparently.  Go figure.

I thought finding a simple nine-to-five day job would be an easy thing—well, it used to be.  Nope! Not that easy.  Does that mean I am going to give up, and let the system dictate my worth?  Absolutely not!  I know there is a company out there that will actually review all two hundred applications, maybe see my faxed résumé, and realize that someone with my level of experience in various fields, my entrepreneur drive, coupled with my intrapreneur talent (an employee with a flair for innovation and risk-taking who is given unusual freedom to develop products or subsidiary businesses within a company) is exactly what they need.

In the meantime, I am going to live by this quote from Streams in the Desert by L.B. Cowman:

“Never pray for an easier life—pray to be a stronger person!  Never pray for tasks equal to your power—pray for power equal to your tasks.  Then doing your work will be no miracle—you will be the miracle.” Phillips Brooks